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"I Am Not An Entrepreneur." - Shayne Veramallay

I lost my interest in driving initiatives that I don’t believe in…
While I stand by and watch wasted lives accumulate as their spirits thin.

False inclusion, similar faces, unheard voices, and a resounding lack of purpose.
No future, no point… my being here is cancerous.

Monthly certifications demonstrating control.
We are diverse…we are compliant… we are a team… we have a soul!

Are they serious?  What a joke!
They keep feeding bullshit, God damn I’m provoked.

Then I remember inspiring moments from over a decade ago.
To solve humanity’s problems, once I am in the know.

My faith and inner beliefs know I have a higher calling.
But how do I climb again, when I’m so tired of falling?

Systems designed to limit my power.
No matter what I’ve become, my attitude sours.

The corporate machine sees no end…
For, my individuality and authenticity constantly bend.

More procedures mandated, just so those in power can stray.
The humor never ceases, but the disgust conveys.

Nightmares and stress from the dreams of my youth.
Hypocrisy to the point where lies become truth.

Think outside of the box, so long as I stay in their lines.
Meet “your” goals, even though they were always theirs and never mine.

Time ticks… the years go by. 
Why I am waiting, I’d rather die.

Conviction is meaningless when I’m surrounded by sheep.
Metrics defined and approved, but unwritten promises will not keep.

“You were brought in because of your expertise.”
But, I need to make sure I fall in line because all I have to do is please.

Someone else always knows better.
Apples become oranges because a senior voice writes a letter.

“We foster growth and want you to shine.” 
How about action… not just another line?

Ignorance is rational, the dollars make sense.
It is working (yet it’s really broken), and that’s the single defense.

Speak up… because no one is listening, until my very words are echoed.
Now there is reason, but I exist solely in the shadows.

The proof is in my data, but irrelevant due to content.
I can’t possibly have the solution… but, either way, my political capital is spent.

Millions of dollars gone to waste - and all they had to do was listen. 
I’m a broken record at this point, but they don’t stop dissin.

But, wait until next year to speak the same.
Keep quiet and do as I’m told, so I can rebuild my name.

Maybe it was my delivery or my attitude that caused them to ignore.
Nevertheless, resources have been drained and the business is poor.

Everyone has an idea, yet none align.
My closest colleagues flee, to better spend their time.

Should I stay or should I go?  I’m miserable and decisions must be made.
Pathetic that I had more job satisfaction when I was in 12th grade.

The search begins under the cloak of silence.
Defeat after defeat, almost makes me want to resort to violence.

Depression sets in and every day becomes a struggle.
Career paths and aspirations are no more, but rather a puzzle.

Lost. Stranded. Disheartened… to say the least.
Until that dream opportunity surfaces and I think I’m about to celebrate with my last feast.

It all falls through and I’m at my bottom.
When is my time to prosper?  Will I ever blossom?

Well dammit… back to square one.
Every day a constant reminder of that other job, and how it would have been so much fun.

I pray to God to make me whole.
I work on side projects to get full, for every minute spent in purgatory leaves me cold.

Is this what my life will be? So what to do now?
I have no idea, but I need to be wowed.

I will just keep my head down and keep going through the motions…
While I may be physically here, there is no devotion.

I Am Not An Entrepreneur. 

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"I Am Impact." - Shayne Veramallay

Head down, the ashes smolder… as a cry begins to sing.
Slowly manifesting hope… spirit rising, the phoenix gets his wings.

Side project looks like it could be full time.
Without shackles… can I finally make it mine?

I’m enlightened to work in the name of the greatest man to ever walk this earth.
What an honor to uphold such a legacy… while remembering the ones who were there at my birth.

Mandela and Madramootoo - two figures that I couldn’t respect more.
Dreams on the horizon, opportunity at my door.

The Long Walk to Freedom and a grandfather that changed the world.
Using love, respect, and education, so many lives touched, elevated, and unfurled.

I remember your last words, as your guitar hangs above me.
Praying that one day I can live up to your legacy.

REPRESENT… using technology to engage the masses.
Show the world what darkness exists, so that we can take off our rose-colored glasses.

We are one race… all standing in the same line to be taken away.
It doesn’t matter the color of your skin… it doesn’t matter if you’re gay.

Now, it’s that time of year again, “ready for your review.”
“You’ve obeyed and played by the books, should be a good payday coming to you.”

Raped of my value, it’s far from what I’d thought.
But it is as expected, knowing the lessons I’ve been taught.

They cannot be trusted… time and again, I’ve seen their behavior.
Thinking that just abiding by their wishes would be my savior.

Betrayal and conspiracy tears me down as mutual disagreement sets me free.
Sure, I’ll take a few months of severance… actually, make it three.

Enough is enough – I am now unleashed.
Finally being able to practice what I preach.

I have a grand idea and after a long review of the world at hand…
My team and I found a way to elevate the common man.

A new element is born, out of necessity, not greed.
To bring economic and social prosperity to those in need.

CAЯBON is its name… enabling individuals to thrive.
I’m not going back to that life, this is the only thing that will keep me alive.

Through capitalism and proven businesses that others can call their own…
We bypass the walls of corporations and bureaucracy through a smartphone.

Donors become investors and congregations become shareholders.
Generating returns and cash flows while taking the guilt off their shoulders.

Leaving this world in a better place.
While accelerating education, empowerment, and resource efficiency at an unprecedented pace.

Investing my life’s worth to create value for something far greater than us all.
Now I can hold my head high… and, I can finally stand tall.

But, things always take longer than I think.
As serendipity, faith, and the right team, will not allow me to sink.

Times of stress and bank accounts running thin.
But, as lives change, the purpose sets in.

Something is watching over us, that I believe.
To do the work we were intended to do, but also a chance to lead.

Our approach is unique… it disrupts the norms and is not something typically seen.
My only concern is if investors actually care about those in the space between.

For, we believe that the traditional models simply do not work.
Being solely dependent on giant exits, and not profitable businesses, it is a bit of a quirk.

In the geographies we hope to effect, people know the value of money better than most.
They do not live in a world of abundance - everything matters… so they are not allowed to coast.

This is a life’s journey, inspired from many years ago.
To work on big things that truly matter, and get rid of the ego.

We have an extraordinary opportunity before us as democracy has wrapped.
Trillion-dollar markets, but our humanity and skills remain relatively untapped.

Our goal is to stimulate GDP through empowerment and knowledge.
With the understanding that many of us won’t ever get to go to college.

Artificial intelligence, clean water, and uplifting underserved populations…
Because that’s what it takes to create new heights for multiple generations.

As a son of immigrant parents who gave everything for me, my motive is clear…
To embrace who I am, innovate, do God’s work, and release my fear.

I Am Not An Entrepreneur…  And, I’ve never really been…
Because I prefer to be inclusive, rather than do whatever it takes to win.

I was taught from an early age to put my head down and work my way up the ladder…
To not take risks and protect myself from shatter.

I need to be moved… and, I’m rarely passionate about any one thing...
Perhaps that is why my finger doesn’t have a ring.

I’ve never had the desire to go out on my own…
I always took comfort in someone else’s home.

I Am Not An Entrepreneur.  I don’t deserve that title.
I don’t really look up to any public figures… I don’t have an idol.

Spending countless hours, but it doesn’t feel at all like work. 
Just progressing a vision without any perks.

How I miss that overhead at times when there is no where else to turn,
But, a call from a former colleague still in chains complains, so I’m glad to stand by and watch it burn.

All of this effort… just an extension of my personality.
Most of it driven from past struggles with my nationality.

I Am Not An Entrepreneur.  I don’t want to roll like that.
I’ve helped so many other companies fundraise, but now it’s my turn to bat.

I love the hustle and I like my hobbies, but the sacrifices can be hard to digest.
How lean can I run… what do I really need to survive?  That is the true test.

Not enough at my disposal to even to go out on a date.
Kind of makes it hard to show love to my soulmate.

Time keeps moving and I begin to question everything.
What am I doing?  Why am I here?  What praise do I have to sing?

I Am Not An Entrepreneur.  I don’t crave money… not anymore.
It’s not even about proving myself… nor is it to even the score.

I used to be driven by material things because I grew up never having any…
Although I have a love for motors and watches, what I have amassed, is plenty.

I have a new lust… to put into action everything I’ve got.
Knowledge, energy, network, creativity, and passion.  But, selfishness and greed, I think not.

That side is long gone, it’s not who I want to be.
There is so much more to life… I get to choose… and I’ve forged my own destiny.

I Am The Difference.

I Am Impact.

www.carbongroup.global

IG: @carbongroup_195
FB: @Carbon Group Global
Twitter: @global_carbon
LinkedIn: @CARBON Group Global

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